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Essence of you

How did we get lost in this life, When you were my world, my guiding light? We promised to always stay together, But that promise broke, gone forever. When I needed you, you walked away, Leaving me broken every day. I tried to hold on, piece by piece, But your love brought hurt, it never eased. Was I not enough? Did I do you wrong? Why does it feel like I don’t belong? What more could I do to make us stay? Why does it feel like I’m in your way? You point out my flaws like that’s all I am, But once you praised me, said I’m your friend. Now all you do is tear me apart, How did we fall so far from the start? So why call me "friend" if it’s not true, When friendship is something I’ll never get from you?

fool for a friend

I wanted you to stay with me for a long time, Even a lifetime would have been fine, but Maybe you don’t understand what a lifetime truly means. You left me even before we made it halfway. Halfway—was that too much for you? Or maybe I wasn’t the one you wanted to hold your hand. Perhaps I couldn’t keep your hands warm enough in the cold, Or maybe I wasn’t your favorite flavor of ice cream. You once called us the best of friends, but now Your silence echoes louder than your words ever did. Did I ask for too much by trying to stay connected? Or was my care something you never needed at all? Was my care too much, or was it something you never needed? I guess you weren’t as hungry as I thought when I made you eat. But was it really wrong of me to care for my best friend? Even putting all that aside, What about the promise you made to stay by my side? Did you break it, just like last time? When you ended our friendship, And I held on, saying, “Everything’s going to be fine,” Letting you wal...

Lost in Silence: When Friendship Feels Fragile

One of my dearest friends is no longer speaking to me, and it’s been deeply troubling. Here's what happened: We had been waiting patiently for almost five days to do something we were all excited about. However, due to another friend, our plans got delayed. Later, when I needed her to adjust her time a little for me, she refused. Naturally, I felt hurt and expressed my feelings. Unfortunately, my tone upset her, and she said, "Don’t talk to me with that tone, I won’t accept it." I immediately lowered my tone and tried to address the issue calmly, but she just left the room and avoided me for the rest of the day. Not wanting this misunderstanding to affect our friendship, I decided to approach her and talk things out. However, it felt like she wasn’t interested. For instance, when she forgot her keys, instead of directly asking me, she involved another friend to request them on her behalf. At that moment, I was at a loss for words. It felt as though our friendship wasn’t s...

Coffee & NO

It all started one day when in one of the hardest days of my life i sat in my balcony having a cup of coffee and slowly slowly start to contemplate my life thinking how life has gone so busy that now even doing the things that added meaning to my life like going out with my friends, gardening, giving time to my loved ones has now become a burden and a heavy task that needs to be completed end of the day, not thinking if it's giving me joy or not. Feels like there's no me left in my life and I'm just stuck in the office, house and going back and forth. I'm constantly doing something either related to my work or from some other person. The guilt i feel when I have to say no to my friends is comparable to having a mountain on my chest. I'm releasing how I keep my work on hold to do other's work and even neglect my feelings just to see them happy.  That night I called my best friend and said "this time I won't slide my feelings and will learn to say no. Thi...